It's amazing how one can do in days
What I couldnt do in years
Suddenly my heart was in my throat again
Torn from all the agony I had fed to it
And finally I had coughed it up
Right into her arms and watched in awe
As she closed the lesions on it and handed it back to me.
I've never seen anyone stitch so perfectly
Yet nothing opens your eyes quite like
Trying to protect yourself from pain brought on by others
Only to find out that you--the one you worried for most
Were doing the damage to yourself
Walking blind comes too naturally, sometimes
And I was running
Running to her--running away from myself
And like the stone on the pavement
As we kick it and watch it roll along its path
Only to land facing the same way it was when it started
So did I land right where I had been
"I'll never get anywhere like this."
Call me Eve
Grasping frantically for my own apple
Crying out as the devil snake
Shrouded in his cloak of Hope
Leers over me laughing--rewarding me with despair
Every time my own forbidden fruit
Slips effortlessly away from my fingertips
and I stumble, crying yet again
I collapsed today
And looked up to where I thought you were standing
Calling out to your apparition once again
To hold this heart that I keep tearing
But I couldn't bear the damage on my own
So I placed it in a glass cage once more
So that even I dared not touch it
But why do we not care about what will happen to ourselves
When someone calls out to us again
And instinctly shatter the glass surrounding our hearts
Without a second thought
Only to suffer the consequences of loving without thinking
And again my heart is bleeding
The stitches are tearing, and I felt like
I may as well just throw it away
And forsake any hope I ever had
But as bad as it hurts
It hurts that much worse to think about leaving.
Some things are more special than my own self.
Some things are worth the risk.
