I am so all alone
When I am with people I know
Why is my self image
That of close to breaking
Every time another interferes in my taking

Some times it feels though death would be better
Then I look at myself and see me yellow
To big of coward to just off this life
To big of cowards to leave my bed at night

The mistakes I have made
Have been just awful
My self-esteem lowered by them of my past
Maybe I am just a fat ugly whore

But I know more
I know that inside lays something good
Though it might use a polish
As its damage goods

Faking an intelligent face
Just to piss them off and put them in there place

So go grab a dictionary and find a better way
To spread lies about my cowardly name
Perhaps in time, this to will end
I won’t hide behind my words of sin
In what seems forever I walk the grounds
Not knowing if I will ever be found


It’s like me to go alone
Not like me to cry
I simply kick my boots up high
To proud to admit
That inside I am scared
To stubborn to say
Hey look it’s me over here
All alone all by myself
Only me
Only now
Only time
To mop alone
But act like nothings wrong

I fear this life
Like life is feared
I fear my death
That it is near

I seek out comfort through a voice
Not wanting anyone to see
What fear has brought
Wrapping myself up tight
Hiding my head in the pillow fort
Lost to the objects of the past
Calling back to you at last

See I am a coward
Hiding behind with in bravery
I am coward
To proud to admit it
But I hide my yellow
With that of words

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