every word grinds my teeth like gravel
and i'm tired of spewing out "i'm sorry’s”
for you.
anchoring every promise to your
squeaky boards and bound in tithe
by your heart.
beside me lies the crippling of youth..
the settling dust of forever
and eternity never seemed so far away..
grasping for such words in a cobweb
box of empty expressions.
mercury rolls about in my palm..
kissing my skin and getting caught in the ridges..
pulling in the colors and reflecting them
onto your face..
and I’d kiss you if it wouldn’t kill me.
still.. your stars bury me beneath
impossibility.. my heart..
mistake me so modestly
burn me cigarette lighters and
unmatched scarfs regurgitating
y o u
this empty you.
empty me
gather your parting gifts, lover..
and if I could I’d clear my forehead
of every breath you’ve ever laid upon it..
wipe the sky clean of your heavens
and pin the clouds against the gray
once again, boy..
just one more time.
and I’d like best just once
more to stuff my face in your pillow
inhaling every soundscentpeace. of you.
so impale me, baby..
you know I’m helpless
so walk away.
I’m that love you left on the street
begging for change with my tin can
dreams and cut-off heroin remnants
of something like you..
not like me.
so for every empty glance I witness
your parts of me will slip away
into the blur of things..
can you promise not to miss me?
