I'm in love with who you use to be.
I'm in love with the idea of who I want to be.
I hate myself but I could learn to love
I'm a dreamer who still keeps her feet grounded.
I'm a lover who just needs your touch.
I can be as big and as bad as I need to be even though I'm lucky if I'm pushing 5'3.
I have a giving heart.
I know what its like to have money and what its like to be poor.
I have an addicting personality.
and been told I have an addictive smile.
If I find something I like I stick to it.
If I find something hard I work harder.
I never give up even though half the time I probably should.
I am complex but keep it that way on purpose.
I love more then I should.
I will make you fall in love with me.
I'll spoil you and take care of you.
But I'm too scared to love you back.
I've been hurt to many times before.
But ironically the thing I want most
The thing I need most
The thing I believe in the most
is LOVE

I have two meaning of the word love
I use it loosely but hold it very deeply
if I have ever said it to you I mean it
I want the same to be true if its said to me

I'm not too old or too ashamed to say
I still watch cartoons
I still play with toy cars
I love coloring books
I want to build a fort in my living room
and i want others to play in it with me
I want other moments to be as romantic as when I was 12
we built a fort in my living room and the boy I liked leaned over and kissed me
under the cover of a fort and flashlight light

I obsess over the weirdest things
I'm passionate about things
I believe that I can find a song to describe everything I feel
and if I can't figure out how I feel I'll find a song to help me figure it out
I love it when i find that person who I can sit and talk to for hours about nothing really
I love finding that person that you have never met before but you feel like you've known your entire life

I think I know what I want
but I really don't
I like to pretend I know the secrets of the world
I want to save the world
I'm growing up WAY to quickly
but no matter what I'm still a little girl with big dreams

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