I just kinda wrote this from the top of my head. Thoughts just poured out on the paper. There is no editing. It was kinda of like one of those writing assignments you get where you are told to just write and not pick up your pen till the teacher says stop.

I try to stay strong
To hold my head up high
I try to smile
But only for tonight

I try to hide the pain inside
I try to move on
I try to be strong

Suicide is painless
Or so the song says
Why is my heart breaking then

I never got to say good bye
I never told you how much I cared
I never got enough hugs
I never got one more night

I miss your smile
I miss your laugh
I miss your hugs
I miss your touch

I miss my best friend

I try not to cry
I try to hold back tears
My tear stained cheeks say otherwise

I could have saved your life
You should have talked to me
You should have come to me
I could have saved your life

I told you I hated that gun
The sight of it made me sick
I told you to be careful
That thing could be deadly

I don’t blame you
I love you
I miss you

I don’t blame myself
I don’t blame that bitch
I don’t blame anyone

I just want you back

Who is going to pick on me
Who is going to protect me
Who is going to kidnap me
Who is going to watch over me

I miss you my friend
Things will never be the same

Watch over me
Watch over all of us
I know you are looking down
I know you see our pain

Did you ever realize how many people love you
You should have known some stupid girl was not worth your life
You were better then that
You were better then her

I miss the talks about your truck
I miss the talks about the car
I miss the car shows
I miss the races
I miss you

You got your sparks now
Drag it fag it
Drop it or go home
Beads for titties

Everytime I see a shooting star
I will think of you
Laying body and throwin sparks

Bags
Bitches
Body drops
And
Beers

I will never forget you
RIP my friend
and they say suicide is painless

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