i sit alone and cry
i hope
i don't know why
i sing to myself
a simple song
a lullaby
hush little baby
there's no need to cry
love is lost
beauty is gone
hope remains
i don't know why
writing is easy
the thoughts come as they please
understanding is hard
my mind starts to freeze
frost on the mirror
fog on the window
the sky starts to cry
confusion runs rampant
i long to repent
but i must bear the burden
i know He died for my sin
but what i have done
dare i ask Him again?
i cry in the dark
sing my lullaby
hush little baby,
there's no need to cry
still the tears,
they flow down my cheeks
i envy the world
the perfection it seeks
i long to be normal
to be myself again
i try so hard
but i still always sin
the burden is mine
i cannot ask Him again
i look in my lap
i find i've gotten a knife
what will i do?
will i take my own life?
so easy it seems
to end the pain
but i cry and i see
that I can ask again
my heart cries out
alone in the void
a light shines on my face
i feel overjoyed
but still i feel guilt
to ask relief from my sins
i turn my face away
too hurt to ask Him again
i look at this blade
i hold in my hands
i throw it away
i don't look where it lands
that is not the answer
it holds no relief
i pray to my master
for some sort of reprieve
i decide that i must
turn to my Lord
He gave me His life
eternity my reward
i give Him my soul
my lasting life's spark
i know I don't have to
i don't want to stay in the dark
He offers His hand
I take hold and we run
He shows me His place
I know my life's just begun
"I'll hold you,"
he says
"through all of the pain,"
"no matter what you do,"
"by your side I'll remain."
I gaze in His eyes
I ask once again
"no matter what I do?"
"You'll still be my friend?"
"no matter what,"
"no matter when,"
"as long as you ask,"
"I'll forgive any sin."
I look down at my body
so frail and so weak
I know in my heart
my Lord's what I seek
happiness, love
I know they'll return
as long as I let
my soul's fire burn
a candle they say
we all have inside
Light mine, my Lord
so I don't have to cry.
