suicide.
death.
release...
a sigh in the dark
catches my ear
the decision is made
no more need to fear
plans come to mind
items to be bought
hidden till the time is right
till release is sought
i cannot bear the grief,
i cannot bear the pain.
i can no longer bear the shame of life,
i feel like i'm insane.
tears of desperation
flow down my cheeks like rain.
laughter bubbles up my throat
to numb the stabbing pain.
i hide away
up in my room
alone
sad
and weak.
i give in to the hurt inside
death is what i seek.
no more to laugh,
no more to cry.
no more to pretend.
never more to sit and pray,
to scream and ask God for the end.
the knife.
this blade.
my love...
my salvation.....
a tiny bite,
no more,
no less.
is all that's needed here.
'tis sharp enough,
and fine enough.
there will be no pain to fear.
my blood is dark,
my blood is red.
beautiful to adore.
i watch in wonder,
silently
as is spatters 'cross the floor.
my heart beats true,
the flow is strong.
'twont be much longer now.
till all my life and all my love
is buried in the ground.
the beauty of this suicide
is too much to comprehend.
what could i have done?
what could i have said?
i welcome, overjoyed, the end.
